Aaaaaaahmmmm baaaaakkkkkk

I haven’t felt like this in a really long time. And I don’t miss the feeling. Being strong is my weakness. I do everything I can and I’m the bad guy. I get punished for not being perfect. I wish I was actually “wanted” by someone. Reward, $50,000,000. That’s probably still not enough.

Was the pathetic enough for you? Lol, good. Because that’s how I feel.

I’m not going to lie. I love being single. I’m independent. I don’t have to worry about anyone but myself. I don’t have to worry about where my phone is. I don’t need permission to do things. I don’t have to watch what I say or do. I don’t have to argue with anyone. I don’t have to take orders or feel guilty about anything.

Those are just a few of the wonderful things about being single and independent. In my opinion, you shouldn’t date before you’re 18. It’s just pointless and irritating. When you’re that young, you haven’t found who you are yet. And dating causes you to grow up too fast and it makes you change without even realizing it.

These are the years to enjoy your friends and family while you can. When you get older, you will meet someone. And you will be with them forever. So for now, enjoy the few years of being single. It’s so much less stress and saves many easily made mistakes. Not to mention, you will probably regret relationships before then anyways.

Sure, we all want to feel important and loved by someone. We all want to feel love and experience it. We want our hands held and our face touched. Trust me, I get it. But love brings along so many things that teenagers simply aren’t mature enough to handle responsibly. That’s just the facts. It’s not possible. You have to grow up completely before you can have a responsible, serious, in-love relationship. So why the rush?

As for me, I’m waiting patiently for mine. Of course, I want to be with someone and want to be in love. Hell, I want to be married and have a family. But for now, I’m going to enjoy the wonderful friends and family that I have been blessed with. I have slowly realized how much happier and how much more myself I am on my own. Not only am I happy but I’m smarter and I’m learning a lot about myself.

I know God will send him to me when the time is right. And I’m excited to see when and who that will be. None of this is really relevant to anything. But just something I’ve been thinking about and felt I needed to write about. I could care less if anyone reads this. But it’s for me to look back on if I start thinking differently. Because I know that right now, this is where my mind needs to be.